July 31, 2002 :::
Mental note:
Remeber to call landlord to renew lease before the day your lease expires
Mental note:
Remeber to call landlord to renew lease before the day your lease expires
Pretty blah weekend. Manged to get some cleaning done, along with my regular laudry sunday night. Picked up new CD's on Saturday. 'The Leo Kottke Anthology' and 'Kronos Quartet performs Philip Glass'. Very excellent stuff.
Went to see 'Minority Report' on Saturday, which while being a good idea, was poorly executed. Like the personalized billboards. Why were they just talking to him rather then the hundred odd people around him. That, and the damn lesbians in front of me wouldn't shut up. Now, I have nothing against lesbians, but I swear if people keep talking during movies, heads are gonna start rolling.
Since Josh has his site validated now to HTML 4.01, I had to go and make mine valid XHTML 1.0 Transitional. I rule.
::: posted by Scott at 01:15 AMThings to do when you are bored:
Go through your archives and make sure they are valid. It's amazing the amount of invalid html and css that is out there.
Q: How many lawyers does it take to change a light bulb?
A: Whereas the party of the first part, also known as "Lawyer", and the party of the second part, also known as "Light Bulb", do hereby and forthwith agree to a transaction wherein the party of the second part shall be removed from the current position as a result of failure to perform previously agreed upon duties, i.e., the lighting, elucidation, and otherwise illumination of the area ranging from the front (north) door, through the entryway, terminating at an area just inside the primary living area, demarcated by the beginning of the carpet, any spillover illumination being at the option of the party of the second part and not required by the aforementioned agreement between the parties.
The aforementioned removal transaction shall include, but not be limited to, the following. The party of the first part shall, with or without elevation at his option, by means of a chair, stepstool, ladder or any other means of elevation, grasp the party of the second part and rotate the party
of the second part in a counter-clockwise direction, this point being tendered non-negotiable. Upon reaching a point where the party of the second part becomes fully detached from the receptacle, the party of the first part shall have the option of disposing of the party of the second part in a manner
consistent with all relevant and applicable local, state and federal statutes.
Once separation and disposal have been achieved, the party of the first part shall have the option of beginning installation. Aforesaid installation shall occur in a manner consistent with the reverse of the procedures described in step one of this self-same document, being careful to note that the rotation should occur in a clockwise direction, this point also being non-negotiable. The above described steps may be performed, at the option of the party of the first part, by any or all agents authorized by him, the objective being to produce the most possible revenue for the partnership.
Well, my mom is fine. She had aortal fibrilation, which is why she went into the hospital. They have her on new medication and the doctor said she was ok to fly.
::: posted by Scott at 09:59 AMSo my mom had this heart thing, starting on monday as I was told. She is supposed to fly to Denver on tuesday. I, among others, think this is a bad idea. People die of heart attacks on planes, don't they?
::: posted by Scott at 03:52 AMReason #12 why living 2000 miles away from your family sucks:
I got a call on my phone at 6:30 am from my sister saying my mom was ill and I should call. I get the message at 7:30, try calling and get busy tones. I try from work and get the babysitter. I try the rest of my family until finally getting ahold of my niece who kindly explains that my mom went in for a heart catheter today and everyone was at the hospital. Joy!
For Josh, or anyone else interested:
The code I used for the basis of my aim bot is here. Look for the one called aim.zip. He wrote an article about interfacing AIM with Java here
I saw you with your new friends, you wear them so well
Broken shoes and loose ends, gee you look swell
Me I'm drinking too much coffee, and I'm smoking cigarettes
I'm addicted to your habit, I just can't forget
I'm only lonely when I'm driving in my car
I'm only lonely after dark
I'm only lonely when I watch my tv
I'm only lonely occasionally
I saw you with your envoy, a consenting adult
Technique in moderation, vogue to the cult
Me I got my strangers to exile in the night
I'm guess I'm just addicted to the pain of delight
I'm only lonely when I'm driving in my car
I'm only lonely after dark
I'm only lonely when I watch my tv
I'm only lonely occasionally
Occasionally
Occasionally
I have lost who I am. I have forgotten the things that I liked of myself. I have misplaced the good times, the happy memories, the love, and also the hurting and bad times that make up the me. Some would say, let go, trust your instincts. Reinvent yourself. But I have begun noticing that, for the most part, my instincts are wrong. Letting go, of control, would be the worst thing to do. I tried that tonight, at the coffee shop. I attempted to return small talk, and engage in conversation. This did not end well. At that point in the conversation, the one where you realize you have no place in it, is the point I left. Turned and walked out at the end of the sentance. At the moment, it seemed to be the best, most expediant solution to the problem at hand. Then, of course, after the walk, I had to wait until no one was looking to retrive my bicycle.
I think I won't be going there again.
Now, according to habit, I am drinking. I know I can do this because it is friday night, and this is what happens on friday nights. Tomorrow I will sleep until noon or so, take a shower, and try to find things to do. Go to the pet store and do the dishes. Take out the garbage. These are the things I can do. I am beginning to fear I am losing my already tenuous grasp on reality. For two days a week, I have no reason to get up and move through the day. Perhaps I should get a weekend job, to provide me with reason to get out of bed.
So I'm back, for the moment at least. Been spending a lot of time alone, with the cats, going quietly insane. Or more insane...
Since cyborgirl was talking about dreams, I thought I would also. This last one, though, disturbed me a bit. Apparently, I had killed people. It was apparently several people, but to be extra spooky, Robyn was one of them. The killing part wasn't in the dream, that I remember, it was backstory in the dream. Something that had happened already. I was in custody already, and amazed that the handcuffs they put on my were too loose. I remember being upset at the shoddy job, being able to get loose and all. I remember at the hearing slowly showing them I could get out and putting my hands on my head, hoping they would do a better job. I remember explaining what I was going to do, getting out of the handcuffs, slowly, so when it happened they didn't shoot me. But before this happened, I was in a 'green room' of sorts, like a holding cell, but not a cell. One of my bosses, Larry, was there, and I remember asking him if he thought they were going to put me to death, and he said something to the effect of 'No, you have bigger things to worry about.'
So, now I am left with trying to figure out what the bigger thing to worry about is, and being destressed about having a dream where I kill people I know. I need serious medication, I think.
But for now, I think, I will continue to spend time in my head.